- 28 November 2011 Monday

Due to last night i slept around 5am+

im woke up late for work...

Dad called me up and scold me ...

1pm+ i reach office ...

Dad he say me again ... sorry dad.. but i really couldn't sleep well at night ...

After know-ing my Harddisk can totally rest in peace ...

I realise that , im wearing a mask everyday to meet up all my friends..

A smiling mask ... to hide all my sadness in front of them. ...

I don't know when i start wearing this mask ...

But i hate wearing this mask to meet all my friends. ..

I want be a true happy person ... but ,

my heart really hurt ... until i can't control my tears keep on coming out from my eyes ..

Lucky office got no one ...

until 3pm+ my worker tabao mee goreng for me.. but i go and got no appetite to eat ... until 5pm+ when i reach home i only eat the mee goreng ...

tonight, i sleep very early without my dinner ... im too tired ...

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i still remember what you said to me when we argue ...

u told me not to worry, we are still brother...

After 2 weeks ... u said my personality got problem, if my personality so suck, does my friendship to you are fake ? do i make any harmful thing to you ? if im so suck why we still can be so close ...

I told you i want to settle all this down... cause i wan to save back the friendship/brotherhood..

you said to me.. my personality got problem how to save? use money to buy friend ar?

This really hurt deep in my heart... you know i dont like people say me rich because im looking for true friend that want friend with me with the heart not because of my money..

I'm not the person that use money to buy a friend ... these words you said to me, i remember until now ... i couldn't forget it .. cause it's really hurt .. damn hurt ..

i also don't know why u wan say like this ...

Day 28

- 27 November 2011 Sunday

- woke up around 9am++ ....

Me and Jun went to Cennai having our breakfast..

Nice roti canai ... Nice nasi lemak but poor service =.=''

1pm++ reach Sunway carnival with Jimmy ...

Went to arcade to tune my new ae86 ...

and saw FT-!!! / Peng Liew / xKOHO / LEGEND ( top 1 ID6AA in malaysia ) and other's ID6aa players. ...

4pm++ i received a phone call ...

The call from computer shop that i gave my HD to make recovery..

He told me my harddisk can't be recover because serious destroy ...

I was like WTF ? well.. i just try to be accept it and ... my mood totally down ... and down...

Something happened, it cant be recover back... just like Me and DragonZai ...

Jun asked how am i ... I know he hate people emo and worry about me..

I make a lie to him said that im good here ... and make some joke with him ...

Just don't wan he worry me ..

That night, i couldn't sleep at all ...

I read back the sms / whatsapp chat logs ....

Guess that only all these left with me ...

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long, if really have a chance, i hope can take a nice photo with you as memories ..

if have a chance, i wish to go back by using time machine ... to save back our friendship...

i'm regret and sorry for everything...

the most important note from my blog/ photo are gone together with my harddisk ...

Day 27

- 26 November 2011 Saturday

Have a gathering at village mall..

Nell said he will be there at noon...

Around 12pm++ i prepare myself and go to village mall ..

i keep calling Nell but couldn't access ...

around 3pm+ he sms me said more awhile he will coming ..

So i keep on waiting ... until 4pm++ i sms him are he coming?

He said he stuck at semiling bridge...

until 5.15pm ... He reach Village mall..

I waited him from 1pm to 5pm++ without my lunch n breakfast... madafaka ..

sipek hungry and dulan edi ...

6.15pm i fast fast rush to Jun's house cause he's hungry and waiting for me too ...

we went to Edo Ichi for dinner and meet up fook ling them for 7.45pm movie - twilight

Cindy told me that Kai Wen shoot him at facebook ...

I keep on facebook-ing in cinema just to shoot kai wen ..

Cannot tahan he keep on shooting people somemore is my friend ...

In the end Kai Wen kena shoot 99 and del the post and block my facebook =.=''

That night, i over night at Jun's house... And Cindy facebook me said that...

Kai Wen msg her and complain this n that... cry father cry mother there...

Well .... such a stupid move ... He seem boh kam buan and keep on complain ...

And we feel glad that finally this guy kena shoot by people ...

At night, chat with Jun until he sleep and i also want to sleep early because have to go sunway carnival the next day for gathering...

i try to open some softy song so that i could get in sleep easily ...

Listening to 记得-JJ ... don't know why .. my tears droping .. i not sure is my eyes tired or

the song truly get through my heart ... until i fall asleep ....

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bro, i think if u were on facebook and read the comments that how kai wen said cindy,

u also cannot stand for it.. cause it's over already and insulting girls..

That kai wen are totally sexual harassment .... such a idiotic attitude...

Day 26

- day 28

tiring day... always wanted to update my blog...

but too busy since saturday until now..

take a rest now n update tml in office bah ^^

- 25 November 2011

Having a nice day although i need sleeping pill to sleep =.=''

busy date with friends every night ...

Although busy for work whole day but feel enjoy at night ... lolx

But quite sad is nigel he's so emo and down these few days..

having problem with his classmate and he though we ignore him ...

i did try my best talk to him and make him feel better now .. cheer bro ..

and good news is.. Initial D 6AA World Akagi Battle Event i got Rank 101 in whole world.

haha.. just spend a bit money and keep on winning ...

Tonight having dinner with Hong Kong people.. nice that they intro me the food and dim sum right there... wish to go hong kong next year ^^

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good night bro and try to sleep early to hv a good health ...

Get a better life yea...

Day 25

- 23 November 2011 Wednesday

Today, i heard a lot story from Ayameh and Small Li ..

They complain about Jeff was fall deep love to a girl that only care for his money..

The girl make Jeff got no honor and so on ~ every month atleast spend him around 2k++

ayameh cried for this friend because the misunderstand that jeff created.. make jeff's gf though ayameh was third party in their relationship ...

it's second times already..

ayameh and small li told me that they wanted to unfriend with jeff because they edi tried hard to pull jeff wake up ... want him to understand loving someone that not appreciate him is not worth ..

I tried my best to ask them cool down and don't do anything like this..

Because jeff already hurted by his girl friend, as a friend still unfriend with him now... he could really sad enough ... lucky they accept my advise ...

Why everyone around me having this kind of issue ? why they dont appreciate the person around them?

like small li said... 作朋友是用心的。。 this sentence, make me remind of someone.. i remember i ask someone why treat me as a bro.. a simple and short answer he answer me.. 因为你是用心来和我交朋友。 i still remember every single words u said ...Z ..

small li is kind of person wont look back to the past and wont go and remember the memories..

but im the person that will keep the memory very well ..

she don't know how hard i wish to have back the bro i lost ..

it's sometime make me down when she say not worth to save a friend that not appreciate you..

she also say now they treat me not good meh?

it's not this problem... small li.. it's because Z was really treat me good enough more than you all..

i couldnt forget the goods he treat me ... it just you dont understand Z's situation and person..

After i reach home, plan to sleep already ...

But my 3rd sis came in my room and talk to my 4th sis ...

she said she go and ask my relative - aunty something happened when i was 1 years old ...

it's remind me the sadness,anger,revenge in my heart ...

i felt so sad and angry but i tried not to show out and control ...

because i will lost control when i know-ing someone bully my mom for so many times...

i wanted to find someone talk for it ... think of rocky, but he's in uk and busy for study now...

think of raymond, he's busy preparing for his final year project ..

think of Z, i not sure he willing be my listener or not because only him know about this past... i tried to msg him but he didn't reply ..

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hi bro, sorry i doesnt mean to disturb you but just hope you could be my listener just now or someday ... Good night and sleep well bro..

Day 23

- 22 November 2011 Tuesday

22 November 2011 Tuesday

Daddy promise me to have dinner with me tonight...

I asked dad dinner with me tonight cause 3 of my sister back to sp..

For so many years when my sister back to home town i also didnt spend my time to have a meal with them...

Since i require to have dinner with them..

But at night, dad said go my aunty house eat..

cause aunty's house got cook and free , bcoz the nxt day is her son's wedding...

dad promised me ... promise to dinner together outside and not going their house for dinner one..

i was waiting for this dinner since morning ...

But all i got is dissapointed ... i felt so upset that even my family members also like that..

I just had mee goreng and one burger for my lunch n dinner..

I'm out of mood to eat anything...

THen went to starbuck to buy some coffee and go to jun's housefor a visit ...

Jun and Andy got misunderstand ...

Although they didnt quarrel face to face ...

But the misunderstand make Jun angry about him..

He felt like been cheated and though andy is not honest to him ...

Look at them, i feel like there's a knife scratch through my heart. ...

I don't want both of them will be like me and Z ...

The feeling losing a bro is really painful ...

I tried my best ... to listen their situation and explain one by one... stage by stage..

The incident was happened in the afternoon but very good news is they was understand stand it's just a misunderstanding and forgive each other... at that night.. everything settle..

I'm glad that i was success to help both of them to recover back their friendship.. win-win situation ...

Lucky didn't drag this incident for so long, if not i think it will be very hard to explain to Jun about andy's situation ...

Look at them was recovered, i feel touched and think why other can but .... i ... failed ..

I couldn't sleep at night, i took a pill from my sis to let me get into sleep easily .. 安眠药..

After an hour i took the pill ... i start to feel sleepy ..

That night, i dream about jun and andy was friend back together and playing with their gunpla..

i also dream about someone but it's just a nightmare for me ...

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Hi, bro.. a msg to you again ... although i don't know you are reading or not ...

But the feeling i look at jun and andy can be friend back without any scar because they remember the good each of them..

I wonder could we ........

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Day 22

- day 22

haiz.. an unhappy day ...

but thing solved ....

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nitez bros

day 22

- update loh ...

aiya.. 3am, cant sleep then start my blog ...

19 November 2011 Saturday...

Small Li and yamateh invited me to see sunset with them ...

got Fook ling ar... Nigel ar... two of them ar.. and cindy ar...

We plan to go tanjung dawai but donno why they change the plan to Semeling jetty...

We took a lot crazy pic there ...

But seem like less one person there..

then we took a lot ki siao photo and i seem been sm-ed by those girls =.=''

and there's a malay professional photographer was there...

and he took a lot of out photo cause we look so funny ...

At night we had dinner at Village mall ...

Coz we got movie show around 10.10pm ...

Puss in Boots...

A really nice movie and funny ... But i felt it's so touching ..

Puss and Egg boy was brothers ... Both of them swear brother forever ...

But due to some reason .... they quarrel ...

Puss got a deep scar in his heart ...

Look at them, i felt like shadow of me n him ...

After movie, all go back home without supper... cause after watched the movie,

i also dont have any mood to eat ... no appetite ...

then that night, jun was over night at my house ... by the time we reach home around 12am ...

then he play with my figure to make pose ...

but unfortunaly i broke my Figma's figure hand .. T_T now it's stuck inside.... ....

Then we make many pervert pose for my figure ...

After played, both of us chat until 3am++ until beh tong le then only sleep...

but i can't sleep... feel hungry ...

then go find something eat... after eat, fresh ki ... =.=''

until 7am++ only can sleep.. sleep until 10am then wake up prepare to go penang ....

20 November 2011 Sunday

2011 2011 , a special day.... also penang bridge run today ...

but i had to go penang queensbay today ... wanna take my tamiya mini 4wd from supplier ..

just order it ....too bad is many stock that i wan already stop manufacturing or out of stock ...

then having lunch at queensbay ... Xian Wei restaurant ..

reach home around 4pm ...

take a rest ..... nua nua my bed ....

until 6pm++ go bath and fetch small li , jun and cindy for movie ...

The Advanture of Tin Tin ..

This cartoon was my fav when i was small ...

on the way to fetch jun,

small li joking there said me n jun are so close now.. look like a gay partner ...

well this is her 3rd times saying me gay .. although i know is joke but i will mad for it.. ..

Then cindy she said, last time me and that bro lagi close ... we will called up to ask wanna delivered any food or not ...

then small li keep on saying eeee u really turn gay jor.. dont ler.... and bla bla bla..

It's fucking annoyed me and i choose to be silent ... i lazy to explain so many ...

she can say me ... but please dont say my bro ...

After pick up Jun and we had dinner at the chicken rice shop ...

by 7.45pm, our movie start ...

may be im too tired for whole day whole night ...

i slept in cinema =.='' until the movie end...

it's not because of the movie bored or not nice... but is i really feel tired.. haha

After movie, they went to wash room and i go for arcade ...

play my initial d6aa ...

Cause it's last day for my Akagi Battle Event...

so far my ranking in the world now is top 100 for this even and rank no2 in malaysia..

just change for rm2 and played 3 games.. won 3 continues ... and hit my event point to 30k

When i reach home, i saw my 4th sis was back to sp ...

and she told me something that what mom said to me last few days ago ...

she said .... this baru the real me... this only look like me ... she is mention about my body ..

not fat anymore ... thin =.=''

walao eh, i just measure my weight last nite and today.. last night i got 63.9kg(whole day boh eat ) and today is 66.8kg ( after eat ) .... swt la... my target 80kg ...

3.15am ... my sis suddenly knock my door .. say wanna tell me something...

manatau ... she come in to tell me the joke .... that make both of us rolling on floor laugh ...

mom ask come say us dont so loud .... but the joke was damn funny and make me more fresh now .....

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Bro, when im at semeling jetty i wish u could be there with us ... to take that photo together ...

when i watched puss in boots... i understand the scar in ur heart very deep... deep to ur heart ...

sorry ... really sorry from my bottom of my heart ...

i hope one day, both of us can hanging out to yum cha ... talk any shit we like ... just like we didnt argue before ....

I heard she said, ur phone spoil edi ... seem like u changed to samsumg ...

Do u still remember i told you about vivi using de sony erickson?

now she regret that said the phone lag and wanna change new phone ... haha...

Last friday vivi came to sp ... come to visit my mom...

she asked me how is both of us... i told her i also got no idea ... and then just ask her dont ask about this cause i dont want to mention again ...

and i rather to choose continue trust you ...

what are you doing recently ? any changed ?

well, im doing better than my past now ...

tell you hor... i always though i could let go ... but i always think about what we had done before .... it's automatik remind me ...

from a song ... anime .... movie ..... even food ....

well.... dont eat so much fried or oily food ar.. sleep early too ..

and After i watched puss in boots .... puss and egg boy can be brother back even they argue and betray each other ... i could more believe that we also can... may be this world are realistic but i told you my turn to believe n trust you now right? just dont take it as a pressure ...

like what u said... think far before do anything ...

Because after this movie, i realise that our matter just a small case, we should remind back and feel how we treat each other before in last time more than the moment we quarrel ...

Because i know we wont lose to one argue and lost all our trust and care in the past ...

one more thing is, hope u understand my situation about hanging out with them too. cause im not the organizer and im just follower ... they need me to fetch them as well too ...

and small li didnt say anything about you cause she donno what happen too ... and she just pointing at me nia.. hope u dont mind yea..

Good Night bro ....

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Day 19....

Day 20 ....

- lazy

what a busy and tiring saturday n sunday...

update blog tml .. lazy lolz

day 20

- 18th November 2011 Friday

Today vivi came to visit me and mom ..

Then me and vivi had lunch at Edo Ichi ....

hmm.. We chat a lot ... crap a lot ...

Until 5pm she drive back to butterworth ... careful when driving yea ..

After that, take a rest .... too tired and outside is raining and make me feel lazy ...

At night went out with Jun for dinner ...

He asked me a lot of thing ....

Had a nice chat with him too ...

After that goto fetch Willy and drop Jun back ..

Then my Initial D6AA start...

Akagi battle event ... and im so bad luck met a fucking pro ass R35 for FOUR TIMES..

He got nice blocking ... lose all the game when battle with him, but im just stick right behind him..... He's so good on blocking already...

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bro how r u doing recently? guess that u also had a long time didnt go for badminton edi rite...

anyway try to do more exercise to avoid high blood pressure and so on ...

well, just a normal care ...

Feel like to share you the feeling when vivi came to visit me ... but .... ....

This weekend penang gurney plaza got japanese festival event ... you going?

So far got eating competition.... wasabi sushi and ramen competition ...

cosplay event , cards game and ++ etc

kinda feel weird im trying to deliver my message to you with this way and im not sure you are reading or not ... haha ...

Oh ya, i dream about you and raymond last night ... raymond become teacher and open a tuition class in ur shop ... me and xiu fu pass by there and you look at me with an angry eyes =.=''

weird dream ...

Day 18

如果有一天我们变陌生了，那么我就重新认识你

- 17th November 2011 Thursday

Today , a big surprise for me is ... the friend that hanging with me now ... one of them is my best friend when im 7 years old and we been tuition together .....

Had a good day today without any emo thing ....

Enjoying my 气功 class ...

Nothing special but busy for date with friend every night ...

Lunch having together with seow li and rong jun at eupe food court ...

didnt feel full or hungry after i ate duck rice and add duck meat =.=''

Many thing to do now,

gonna learn the piano song myself without anyone teaching ...

continue with my business page and also forum ..

Not enough time for me to do it ..

This week i had my dinner around 12am++ =.=''

Wondering what happen if me and the bro meet again at outside ?

I just act donno and walk pass away ?

treat like a stranger ?

Or give a hi ?

Don't know... See what reaction he give to me first bah ...

Good night bro ...

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Day 17

-Bitch Come and talk for it or else shut the fuck up and get lost ~

To that one who i mention in previous post,

if u read it and u dont like it...

just come and talk to me...

No need to say anything in front of other ..

What u had done we all knew...

Not only what i written in previous post only ...

Even the C girl also personal message to me and say THANKS for helping her that giving back her pure ...

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Even i knew i wrote about that bitch will cause many side effect to me ...

But this is the way i am...

i told yea i wont let any GIRLS stand on my head anymore ...

i endure for so many months ....

if i dont shout out ... IM NOT WHO IM ....

I dont care what will i deserved , i only know if im being silent ... its wont be fair for me..

I'm too kind for you all to bully ...

I being silence doesnt mean i don't know...

I just dont want to argue in wrong timing and i givin chance ....

Don't think im dumb ... you are the one who fooling yourself only ..

May be you are success , but god will let u deserved what you had done today in one day ...

If reality that me n that friend will be like this until the day i end my breath ..

i rather to shout it all thing that piss- me off ...

Because at least i got the good memories with me ...

x bro if you think we just someone who pass-by our life ...

I just wanna let you know.. for me you are not ...

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Today, i delete and untag a lot of photo between me and him ...

i though these could be erase all my memories or relationship with the friend...

But this, couldn't access because i did appreciate so much ...

Yup, appreciate and respect is in heart ... but different people.. different express for their appreciate and respect .. Just different type doesn't mean not respect or not appreciate ...

If you dont speak it out, other won't know what you are thinking ....

Although i go through my life now, don't know why i like to read back our chat logs... photos...

and some memories ..

I admit that my time was stopped at 19th August 2011 ...

But this is what i deserved because i really fault at early stage to say something hurting a true friends heart ...

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I know someone will angry or whatever after he/she read the post ...

But try to stand on my position.. my situation to think of my feeling ...

Not blaming you all just hope that understand my feeling ...

I dont care what the fuck who's fault ... who's right .... it's doesn't important now ....

那些年，我們一起追的女孩 though me a lot to let go and remember the memories we had ...

I let go not meant by im giving up ... not meant i dont appreciate or what the fuck up ...

Just i blessed from my bottom of my heart to him have a good good life ....

Else i'm just annoyed to him ...

What i can say for myself is ... im really stupid .... .....

But i will stop all these end of this year ...

Next year will be the year that i didn't met with you all ...

New year ... New life ... New friends ....

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Day 16

- 13 November 2011 Sunday

-12 November 2011 Saturday night....

Over night at B'zai house tonight and we discuss for tomorrow-sunday trip ...

we chat all the night , facebook-ing , spam group chatting together ...

Until 3am++ we only off to bed ...

But tonight, i cant sleep ... im awake until morning 7am and morning call two leng lui to ask them wake up ... and then i go get ready myself ...

- 13 November 2011 Sunday...

8.30am start to fetch those leng lui go Penang.... and meet A'Zai at queensbay mall to pick him up and let him bring us to try the best food in Penang today.. consider a food trip...

1st we went to BJ complex there had a nice nasi lemak... the sambal n chicken was nice...

and then we go balik pulau there try the siam laksa ...

Then i plan to bring them go batu muagh ,, but forgot the road and go back to georgetown area...

Then we tried mee goreng ... at pulau tikus there... so near my old hostel and i didnt know the mee goreng was so nice and famous ... xD

Next destination .... indian street cendol ...

wooo, surprise me is... there's so many people waiting for the cendol ...

After cendol, new world park ice kacang... although i ate until sien ... but impossible im so selfish and didnt bring them mar ...

well the time around 2pm++ we went to ferry there, try wt wt ice ar.. hmm.... its like jelly + ice and one biji of ... er.... longan =.=''

After that, we went back to queensbay seaside ... because have to drop A'zai back there before 5pm...

3 guys having guy talk there and 2 girls having girl talk there....

Suddenly, someone ask me what happen to me last few weeks ... cause see im so quiet when hanging out ...

so i tell that girl i had quarrel wif my best bro and feel sad for it only ...

im dont want to let her know the story ... and she keep on asking ... make me down ....

and by that time, i saw a car with that plate number.. i look inside the car... is that bro .. ermm... is that friend ...

i was like.. OMFG O.O!!!

i though in sp we always met at outside because of sp small ...

but in penang wor =.='' still can see dao him ...

i don't know this is jodoh or the fate that want me to face it so hard ....

so i told tat girl, the bro i mention just now, just pass by =.='' lolx..

and she keep on forcing to msg him that said i saw him ...

let him know atleast im still caring about his this friend ..

seriously i felt not to disturb him now and calm down myself...

But she keep on forcing me... talk about it .... in the end i send the msg , so she could stop ...

then we went to Sunway Carnival ...

watch 6.45pm movie - 那些年，我们一起追得女孩。。

真的很喜欢这部戏。。

让我感动，心酸和感触到流泪了3-4次。。

看到他们那么好的友情，吵架打架，到后来还是关心着大家。。

明明彼此那么的爱对方。。 可是就是不原意的开口。。

虽然他们俩到最后不能在一起。。 可是相信他们的心中都有大家。 。

看到自己好朋友和自己喜欢的女孩在一起的时， 也没有去干涉他们。。

他们的友情还真的很好。。

如果，真的如果。。 我真的很想回到我们没有吵架时的友情。。

回忆。。这部戏。。 勾起了我很多很多和我的好朋友在一起的回忆。。

不止是和这个兄弟。。 也勾起了我从小到大是的好朋友。。

每一个， 我都记住在心目中。。

有维伦，龙洲，东洲，开源，伟伦，等等。。。

虽然有些在我很小时我们就因为家庭搬家而分开，

可是我的心永远都还记得我们在一起的时刻。。。

不知你还记得我们一起玩ro的时。。 找好吃的食物。。

分享身边的趣事或烦恼。。

互相的扶持着双方。。

一起打球。。 出门走走。。 等。。

真的很想要挽回这个友情，让它变回以前那样。。

可是尽了一切的努力。。 还是不能。。

x也有你自己的生活，我也不必再做贱自己没有尊严的去挽回。

因为你不想， 我再怎么努力的挽回也没有用。。

明明那么小事，却搞到那么严重，一点也不像你。。

哪怕有一天， 你还记得我这个曾经的兄弟，找我喝茶或打球吧。。

因为我说过我会遵守我们是兄弟这个的约定。。 即使你忘了。。

我们那些美好的回忆。。 只会是回忆的陪伴着。。。

不是你的话， 我现在不会发现身边那么多爱我，关心我的朋友。。

也不会振作的为我自己而奋斗。。 我该说谢谢你。。

当然， 我也希望在我那么幸福的生活中， 会有回你和我以前的那段友情，兄弟情。

这个， 看天或你了。。 我还会是一样，选择相信，信任和等。。

再见了。。 friend/bro

有时不去计较一切，勇敢地踏出第一步。。

大家才会快乐。。

说真的我也忘了我们吵架一直到被问起。。

因为我只记得那些美好的回忆。。

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我会记住那个名叫wen xin 的女人。

是她说她很保密。。 这是她的为人。。

我还傻傻的以为她可以是中间人帮我们和好。。

可是， 该说的她不说， 不该说的就说-还是说尾不说头。。。或者是说头不说尾。

还自己做贼心虚删除了我面子书。。

还想在我这里套话。。。

Bitch, 还在他和我的面前说 C女单独的参别人。。

要不是我去问， 永远的被你骗, C女也给你诬蔑了。。

Dont say im rude... Dont say i put the blame on you ...

But in fact you are directly who make this incident become worse..

No wonder she got so less friends around her...

That's what i curious when i friend with her...

Now i know why ...

After asking some's friend that know her...

Just only know she's really BITCH...

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Day 13...

tired... update blog tml zzzzzzzzz

- 11th November 2011 11pm11mins,11sec Day 11

A special day and i made my wish at 11th November 2011, 11am .11mins 11sec ...

I wish that everything will be like last time, our brotherhood never break ...

I know this cant be force but just a little wish ....

Wondering how are this bro now?

How's his life going on? so far so good ?

or still the same, work like dog ? =.=''

Many thing feel wanna talk to ... like, brother's talk? health care?

haizz whatever lar... just joking and bullshit around ... play together .... hope all these will happen again...

He still willing yum cha wif me? i don't know... since so long he didnt contact me already..

Having a good time with friends tonight at Bites ... and i also received a hand make jelly from a girl ^^

Nice.. thanks a lot...

Ystd was a great day for me.. Sold 4 pieces of yugioh card and earn RM200 , and sold my Ferrari car set for RM160 ... just run my business through facebook ...

So far my page that selling bandai's product such as gunpla, mask rider havent done yet...

but before december should be can promote it and forum as well too ...

But at night was a nightmare for me... i though im so good slept at 12am... but i woke up at 1.40am.... 2.30am.. and then 3.20am.... fed up.. cannot sleep back anymore... then wait until 6am++ only sleep back... woke up at 11.11.11 10am++ ... had a bad bad nightmare...

i dream i killed someone , and his soul is coming to me for revenge ...

Day 11

- Release ....

Don't know why, after this incident about me n him...

I a bit try to accept my sister ...

Try to more communicating with her ...

May be now i understand her feeling that losing the one she love...

The hurt... the pain ... the sadness ... those upset can kills you ...

It's doesnt mean anything, i just realise that.... love everyone beside you...

Love the one who really care on you ...

Trust anybody.... and never give up, miracles might happen everyday...

Life is just like math ... we need to calculate evaluate it from negative to positive ...

Day 10

- how to stop ....

everytime i went to KL, i got a feeling that im damn suit kl life...

kl night life i guess ...

i miss kl ... hate to be in sp ... sad place ..

and i realise that, i finish 1 pack of rokok in 2 days..

damn heavy smoker and so hard to stop now..

i cant control not to smoke now...

but still trying my best last two days.. just smoke 2-3 times per day..

sorry that i couldn't keep this promise ... just give me some times to adjust back ..

may be i should prepare my last will .. just in case anything happen to me...

Day 9

- 8th November 2011 Tuesday

Haiz... though im so guai zai slept before 1am... manatau .. woke up at 4.45am =.=''

in the end sleep back around 7am and go to work around 11am ...

haiz.. really hate insomia, make me dont have a healthy life style ..

when i can totally relax myself ?

tonite 气功 class... too imba...

they open - love game , poker face , just dance , bad romance ++ song ...

fuiyoh... see dao those uncle aunty ... haha feel funny ...

Recently many memories pass by my mind ...

Having this photo at his house... really a wonderful moment we had..

Kind of symbol of bros but it's past ... i do like we cheer each other by doing punch like this..

haha... tai lou and sai lou ... i look like gangster ... xD

谁对你好，谁对你不好， 难道没眼看吗？

宁愿相信某些人的闲言闲语也不要相信一个没心害你的人？　

这难道是所谓的信任？　

难道因为了小小错误，就判死刑？

阿阿阿阿阿啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊～～～～～

不要以为什么都是你对。　我不出声和争论只是我希望快点把事情结束。

你要说就说，　我要说时你就不听，自私吗？　

要乱的话，早就乱倒荷兰了。。　

难道没有顾到别人的感受吗？　

发泄完了。。　

最近不知干吗，　遇到这样的人。。　还好不是很熟。。　

希望某某人不会误会是他就好。。这只不过是个发泄的过程来平衡心态。。

看来真的要看心理医生。。　心理有点不平衡了。。　

不知要等到几时。。　

还好最近一直有人约。。　

还有的是　Ａ仔和Ｂ仔。。　还蛮关心人的。。　

Day 8

　

- KL KL KL ..

坐5th November 2011 11.59pm 的巴士去KL .。

7早8早到那边。。 吃mcd早餐 =.='' ( 一直mcd不会sien mer )

整晚在巴士不能睡。。 脑海中闪过了很多的回忆。。

某某回忆和一些以前和他们来kl比赛的回忆。。

虽然这次， 我没有比， 可是精神上支持。。

9am++ 我参两个朋友去找hotel。。 做好了一切后， 进房休息。。

很累的我。。 看到床， 竟然睡不到 =.=''

算了， 休息一下， 要赶到 Time Square 去meet 朋友。。

一些玩 Initial D6aa 的人 。。

本打算等下去One Utama 的， 因为还有要meet的朋友在那边。。

可是， nigel 他们比赛那边出了点出错， 搞到每个人都很火。。

我只好叫他们回房好好休息和准备吧。。

没办法， 只好call 给那个要meet 我的朋友说我不能去1U 了。。

到了晚上， tmd 他们又再要吃 mcd 因为懒惰找 =.=''

吃完后， 就等朋友来载我去 Desa Sri Petaling 那边meet 人， 喝茶。。。

然后我们还下到 那边打snooker..

还游车河。。。 下MidValley

可是我要早回， 因为没有room key。。 1.45 am 到房间。。

可是又是一个失眠的晚上。。。 我和朋友在电话聊天到4.30am 才睡觉。。

在下午的时候， 我msg 问候了一位兄弟， 可是多希望在msg 中我是写bro而不是friend/dude。

不过，还是要多多看开和接受吧。 相同的命运就是我们到最后还是放弃自己的梦想。。

和家里做工。。

隔天， 7th November 2011 Sunday 。。

比赛当天。。 Good Luck to them bah..

我大概11.30am 就等我的姐姐来在我去 One Utama 然后 Ikano/Ikea。。

因为要过去买4wd车和坐朋友的车回sp。。

要不然我要等到12am的巴士。。 我会发疯的。。

真个下午我的很冲忙。 快快买完了就走人。。。

吃也吃快快。。 哈哈。。。

晚上收到好消息。 nigel的team。。 拿到了Msia 第三名。。

下次自己驾车来。。 因为还有3-4gang的朋友， 没有空和他们见面。。

Recently there's so many friends accompany around me...

Especially A and B ... three virgo guy =.='' i should go have a nick with C at the start ..

hmm.. i guess they might say [C]ock =.=''

Planning next time going down to KL with both of them...

Already decide to go just haven't plan the date yet..

Have to come down to check all the modelling/toy's price list and shopping eat ho liao...

Cheer up and take care mr.TO

- 3th November 2011 Thursday

Went to yak wha for my lunch today and take a visit to factory see how they produce the snack ...

Now all using machine, last time when mom working at this factory, all hand job ..

Today 的气功班太厉害了，他们开clubbing de song.. Got friday night, hit on the dance floor, give me everything tonight ... Etc,
Imagine inside all old folk and listen to this kind of song .. Really LOLZ

Music really can make people feel happy / relax in good situation ...

Still the same feeling, look at those uncle aunty enjoy with smile face... i feel so glad...

Don't know why i got this feeling, may be it's because i miss my grandpa and grandma..

That why i more love to old folks..

After finish the class, gel called me supper with him...

He told me something happen on him and make him unhappy ...

Plan to go old town, but i changed my mind to E-burger..

After reach home, i felt so lucky that i didnt go old town...

Why i seem like trying to escape from someone ?

May be i really need sometime to accept the fact ...

In the class, i told myself everyone are having their life... just let go the unhappy thing but not giving up ...

Live for my ownself .... do what i should do ...

See... even him also having a happy life now and forget the past .... why i cant?

i know my ownself dont want to forget his goods and the memories ... that's why i cant make it ... or can say i dont want to let go ...

I wanted to remember what i have done, what's my mistake ....

Day 4

Temperory say Good-Bye to Sungai Petani-ans...

- 2011 11 02 Wednesday

平常的一天。。 还是到了晚上就忙碌。。

很开心的和朋友去看戏。 看一些不该看的东西。。

还商量几时要去club喝酒。。

gel 说看到我都替我担心。。 说吃饭时， 看到我的手一直抖。。 =A='''

整个晚上一直吃。。

8pm+ 吃炒饭， 9pm+ 吃chicken popcorn , 10pm+ 吃烧肉面和chicken wing。。

还是饿。。。

回家吃零食， chocolate =.=''

不明白什么肚子来。。。 吃不饱。。

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TMD 为什么最近看的戏都说那些经典的话。。 什么一日兄弟， 一生都是兄弟， 什么兄弟没有隔夜仇。。。

什么只要相信，一切都会成真。。

看看了， 发现原来我一直以来都骗着自己。。

好累。。 明明只要放开， 就好了。

干吗要犯奸呢， 干吗不放弃？ 自己也不明白。。

只知道自己相信会有那么的一天到来。。

最近真的pokai９９　。　吃还是不敢花钱。。　毕竟需要到ＲＭ２ｋ来救我的ｈａｒｄｄｉｓｋ．．　有时就吃多，　有时一天一餐的经济饭。。　多数也是在晚餐。。。　

day 3

- What i had learn today

Insomia until 5am+ only sleep..

It continues 1 week jor...

haizz ....

A wonderful and meaningful day i had today ...

Early morning drive to Penang, see doctor... can say see my uncle.. he's doctor..

He said i no need eat any medicine for my thyroid...

And he scold WHAT THE HELL to this stupid wellness lab charge so expensive and

did so much unnecessary test ....

After that went to Gurney Plaza meet up with friend ...

Actually only meet up a friend and train initial d6aa de..

But met 3 gangs of friends at gurney plaza...

=.='' Home town at sungai petani but very less met any friend here...

Once in Penang, met so many friends..

Wondering should i go to Penang?

5pm back to sp from penang... but 7pm reach home =.=''

Fast fast rush bath and go out..

Cause friend's mom tarik me go train 气功。。

First time went there and learn 气功。。

I learn many new thing there...

Look at those aunty and uncle, they are so enjoy for the dance? or warming up?.. wtever la

Some of them, did so hard... big movement...

There's a aunty wear mini skirt and dance like dancing in the club... LOLZ..

The song also HOT than we teenagers song...

And mix up the song with chinese / malay and ++ like really 1 Malaysia...

Right there making my mind so fresh and feel so glad...

So old aunty uncle ... some of them consider grandpa and grandma...

Still training there and having a good healthy life... Proud of them...

After the training ....

Looking for food.. Because just realise that whole day so busy until didn't eat =.=''

Plan go to bites but close then went to Summer Pearl ...

Don't know is 天作弄人 or what .... Met a birthday boy there ...

haha in the end i realise i not dare to ask him out tonight was right ...

btw.. wish him Happy Birthday bah ...

Day 1

- 11111

1.11.11

x5 1 in this year... 11111

hmm.. Happy Birthday to those people who are having their birthday today ...

Wish them got a nice day and good health ..