- 1st August 2011 Monday

I didn't went to work today, i go for check-up... my cough havent recover yet ....
After reach home, i start to write my dairy ...
From last night, i slept around 6am++ if i not mistaken... emo again...
i can feel the pain in my heart...

so on... im still emo-ing today.... I don't know how to face him and i dont feel like want to see him ...
Im scare being backstab again..... Playing me like a toy... Fooling around me ....

I felt im so useless that i couldn't help so much that why im be the one who don't know everything .... I dont even know what their feel...

- 31 July 2011 Sunday

7.30am Thomas morning call me to wake up.... This really surprise me that he woke up before me and called me to wake up =.=''
After fetch him, we heading to Raymond's house ....
Tday breakfast quite special a bit... We had it with Raymond's father together at Butterworth Chou Quan Dim Sum ....
After breakfast, me Thomas and Raymond go look for the seller - Hikari85 for my Razer BlackWidow Ultimate - Dragon Age II edition keyboard... and then we went to Raymond's house...

Testing my new keyboard and relax around his house... really make me feel warm and relax.. like no stress...
We dota together without mouse... ( playing Ai ) hahaha
Finally today, i had photo together with Raymond and Thomas... two brother take photo together...
I knew them for years but didn't take photo together... kind a waste huh... hahaa...

Today Thomas told me be myself... dont always care of what other feel or want them happy and hurt myself... He said he's really treating me as his brother, that why he care of me... worry of my sick ...

Well these words kinda touch and warm my heart ... but .. sorry i .... .... i need some times to walk out my phobia ....

- 30 July 2011 Saturday

Due to my parents went to KL yesterday ... im home alone ...
Plan to have dinner with Thomas but he have dinner with his family tonight and he asked me wanna ta bao for me or not... well.. since later we gonna meet up then i okay with it..

After awhile he phone me asked me , wanna having dinner with his family or not.. His dad asked for that... Since his parents asked me once before, so this time i should pay respect to join them....
well, so far still okay , i didn't feel much stress to had dinner with them, But i can see his father really protect his brother Kelvin ... Kelvin look like a small kid even he's elder than me 3 years old .. .hahahaaa
So sad tonight Kelvin cannot come to visit my house tonight because me and Thomas have to meet Raymond for discussion ... about Sunday plan ...
We went to Bites yum cha ... but , me and Thomas argue ... Raymond was shock and looking to us... then ask us stay peace...

- 27 July 2011 Wednesday

Today went to watch Harry Potter with Kelvin and Thomas...
Btw, when me and Thomas having dinner, suddenly he asked me how am i and Wei En .. Because he jio me for dinner also...

haiz.... when he talk about him, i turned emo little bit, i feel sad to this friend....
why he back stab me somemore still want to acting like my friend?

- 24 July 2011 Sunday

Seriously i can't sleep well because yesterday i called Pheng Jong to drive safe and he though i want to chase Cindy =.=''
Im just caring and worried for their safety because the corner in camera quite sharp and i heard his driving skill not good as well =.='' somemore he's initial D arcade's players...

Sunday, its my day with my brother Raymond ... but i couldn't enjoy at all because im not sure they reach cameron already or not ... Thomas said he will sms me when they reach ...

They said i over worry... am i ? They are my friend... i dont wish so fast losing friend yet... somemore thomas he's my bro ~

- 23 July 2011 Saturday

It's a tiring day for me today but i have to fetch Thomas , Kelvin and Jia Lim to penang to buy Thomas's camera lens...
He wanna use it for Cameron trip tomorrow ....

Today i having a bad temper ... may be im hungry and tired bah....

- 21 July 2011 Thursday

Whole afternoon sitting in office.. so Bored..
Tonight Wei En find me go out for dinner.. I called Shawn, Shawn told me he don't want to see this guy and he hate and scared of this kind of person...

5pm plus... Thomas and Kelvin delievered me " Tai Lok Mee " big size that they bought from Penang...
The taste not bad but too big =.='' i cant finish at all even i shared with my mum...
6.30pm i fetch Kelvin go SPEEDY buy DvD and then i wait Wei En outside his house for dinner after i drop Kelvin back home...

But we just spend 30minits for our dinner at Nasi Ayam Berempah... on the way back, he told me Shawn and Vivian bad thing again.. haiz.. sienz...

10pm++ i went out with Thomas at Pelita and chat for a while... I told him what the conversation between me and wei en and went back home around 12am because im quite tired ....

But in the end i slept at 6.30am =.=''

- 20 July 2011 Wednesday

As usual life, after woke up and went to office...
Arhhh... im big prawn head, forgot to bring my wallet, have to go back home take and kelp Kelvin bank in the money for online dealer..
Then me , Kelvin and Thomas went to Lao You had our lunch....
Quite a busy day for me today because i have to go butterworth and Bm..
Then i tabao Roti canai for Thomas at butterworth because his brother - Kelvin said it's nice...

Today is Kah Geap birthday... we celebrate for him at centre square - Pizza Hut....
Have a good time with them yea ~

- 17 July 2011 Sunday

Yeah... It's sunday again... It's my time to meet my brother Raymond again ^^....
Thomas join us for breakfast too... but after that he have to go Penang for company gathering.
Today just a normal day or unlucky day?
After breakfast, me and Raymond go cut hair... After cut hair, they drop me home and i went out lunch with Wei Kaei and dota ... n he coming to my house after dota, because we having badminton tonight ^^ ...

Arhh my racket patah again... the same person / same model, colour's racket .... i turned emo.. ORZ...
that night, donno why, i felt very emo.... i felt im the one who spoil their friendship... i mess up everything ... and i couldn't help them ...

16 July 2011 Saturday

3pm we going to Penang Bon-Odori Festival together with Thomas, Eddy and Jia Lim....
It was so bored and may be someone emo-ing there ... so everyone keep silent ....
We having our dinner at taiwan Ko Cha Bi near old green house there...

14 July 2011 Wednesday

Dota again with eddy around 4pm++ and waiting Thomas come back from penang...
Because today im going with him to penang to buy camera..
Well.... when me n Thomas on the way to Penang, i told him i skype with my didi - Rocky aka PuppyZai last night from 1am++ to 5am++ ....
I was very happy having talk with my didi...

Arrive Penang, we heading to Queensbay Mall to buy Sazabi Gundam that i wanted to gift Thomas as his birthday present ... But this not surprise anymore because he saw my post comment on facebook... haiz....
Then we go to Tanjung Bunga my friend - Mackid's house to buy Canon 60D and 50mm lens...

Manatau in the end, the lens.. Thomas he paid for me... He told my friend do not sell to me because he wanted buy for me as my birthday present... OMG !! This is really surprise me until i donno what should i show out of my emotion .... ..

Really, this is first time i got surprise for my birthday ...
That night, i was so happy until i couldn't sleep ...
haha... like a kid right ?

Midnight, i was thinking how funny both of us quarrel for a small issue... I said that im dissapointed to him and regret .. He was very angry and hurt deep deep...
I apologize to him that i hurt him so deep ... Im so sorry to my brother...
I swear to myself, not to say anything hurt him again... not even once and believe in our brotherhood...

I can't imagine how hurt are him when i said this to him , but afteri think twice, i can feel the pain.. im so sorry bro.... I hope everything will be fine soon..

- 13 July 2011 Wednesday

Cannot tahan hunger again... total 49 hours didn't eat... haha emo mar... no mood eat ^^
ngam ngam Eddy jio me go dota.. so we went to eat pasembur and then heading to Ntech Cyber Cafe dota...
Around 7pm ++ Thomas message me that he didn't have OT tonight..
So me, Eddy and THomas went to eat steam fish hor fan near Pantai Hospital ...
After dinner... went back to cyber cafe dota again... but lose all the game =.=''z orzzz

- 11 July 2011 Monday

Today i slept until 11am and took my lunch at office around 2.45pm. Thomas delivered me MCD-GCB ..
Tonight, Wei Kai asked me to go his house at night to dota, His parents went out for meeting....
Damn night.... his house suddenly no electric when we playing dota.... ITS BLACK OUT !!

- 10 July 2011 Sunday

Due to last night i slept around 5am.. I can't having my breakfast with my brother - Raymond and his girl friend Melissa..But i still have to wake up around 11am to bring Thomas go Soh his leg... He got injured...
After that, 1pm me and Thomas go find Raymond for lunch... We having lunch together with Tze liang at laguna Merbok there ....
Atleast i see my bro today.... haha... miss him so much ...

- 8 July 2011 Saturday

WoW... today i slept until 2.50pm and rush to second street for lunch that appoint at 3pm with Wei Yang and Tze Liang...
We discussing to have BBQ party after badminton 8pm-11pm tonight..
After lunch we went to Thomas's shop to ask what to buy for BBQ later and me and Tze Liang heading to Bakar Arang Tesco to buy the food..

After badminton, we took bath at Tze Liang's house and start our BBQ party until 3-4am...

- 7 July 2011 Thursday

Today i had argue with mom again.
It's happen three times in this week. She said that i didn't give freedom for her to reading.
But i mention for many times , the books she read is a kind of wash brain..
We quarrel once in the office at afternoon already and night we got this arguement while i'm waiting Thomas to hang out...
It just a short 10 mins times, But it make me damn piss..
What i saids, she reply other thing..
After i received Thomas's call, i went out dinner with him... He accompany me for dinner and endure his tiring and spending his time listen to what i shared..

I was so surprised that he asked me am i argue with mom again after he get into my car..
We went P.A.T.H for dinner and i wanted to have second round because the food there was expensive and few choices... Plus i cant full with one bowl of mee =.=''

And he knew that i want go Nasmir for second round and he also knew i wanted to go my secret base to relax... I really feel touched that atleast there's a people know what am i thinking...

I think i should change my attitude .. to be more calm and free.. Never stress myself and think a lot again.. I really hate myself that always find Thomas to share my trouble ...